Boring post roast about work and life

I'm very upset , I really can't do anything , It's depressing , It's suffocating .

There's a good saying , Just move the idea of leaving , Going to work every day is suffering . Today, because SB Leadership of , I was sulky , Clearly know that I didn't do this very well , I have to find something wrong with it to disgust me , Isn't this fucking brain problem ？ What else do you say? I'm too lazy to be angry , raw NMLGB Well .

I really want to leave like this , quit .

But I don't know if I'm out of this environment , Can you get the life you want ？ It's really unknown .

Gave up this job , I lost a job paying a large amount of five insurances and one fund , Lost a hand 6500 A high paying job of Yuan , Or in the fifth tier cities . It's my poor tolerance , The glass heart , Or her mouth is too poisonous . I guess it's more my reason . But even so , The idea of leaving is still lingering .

I didn't feel much when I just talked to you this afternoon , But in the evening, I have nothing to do to come back and think , Fuck you . Every month, we should bring out the things reported , Is this NIMA's menstruation ？ Why do you have to take it out every month ？ What does it look like , It's perfect ？ Maybe I can't even do this little thing well . Maybe this is my disease .

But the style of the unit , Has deeply affected my behavior and habits , I seem to have lost my fighting spirit , Getting sleepy , Every day is to eat and die , Get through today and wait for tomorrow , Get through tomorrow and wait for the day after tomorrow , Only in the evening every day C Language , Learn Android , Although I can't understand , I didn't study hard , But this kind of atmosphere has imperceptibly affected me , I become , I became as worldly as them , Do nothing every day , Eventually lead to nothing .

Study in the evening is also a while to see Tiktok , Look at the tiger pounce later , How much can you really absorb ？ When on earth can we learn the beginnings of Android reverse ？ I can't even learn cryptography , What on earth is there to talk about cracking ？

In fact, I know that my strength is not computer , I can only use the computer to search network resources to the maximum extent for my own use , But let me learn , My math and logic are rubbish , It's really hard to learn .C Language has seen many teachers , In fact, for pointers and functions , The structure is still half understood , Android reverse is out of the question .

My advantage lies in my ability to speak English and talk with people, and my ability to cooperate with information retrieval , In addition to the detailed wordiness and deception ability , In fact, I can deal with some primary sales work , You can also do some primary trade work by yourself , But now in this resource scarce fifth tier town , It is really difficult to achieve all .

The big house you want , Good car , How can you buy it without working hard ？ If you don't study and work well, study the idea of making money , How can such a state be achieved every day ？ Every day just keep dreaming and fantasy , Do not carry out efficient improvement and learning , What's the point of pretending to be motivated and hard-working ？ Can I really find such a good job after leaving ？ There are really too many problems that need my own thinking and consideration . But , I think I really don't have the motivation to stick to it , Really no longer .

Things have come to this end. , Prepare some handover things first . Try to hand over all suppliers before leaving , Clean up all the tasks at hand , clean , Refreshing , No tail .

I don't know what to say , Watch a video .