Wake up from a dream

Wake up in a dream

Today, my girlfriend's mother made a phone call and said that she hoped to study for a doctor , Then find a secure job , Live a stable life with your girlfriend . After I answered the phone, I was troubled , It's very unpleasant .

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Maybe I'm too junk , Two years have passed by during my graduate study , In the past two years, as long as it is a group meeting, I have been in a panic , I don't know what to say at the group meeting , When it's your turn to ask about your progress “ Still reading the literature ; Still running data ; Still sorting out theories ”.... It really took two years of hard paddling , But not unhappy , During this period, I was very happy with my girlfriend , Although learning is not very academic , But I learned a little about technology python, I found myself in python I can't climb out of the pit , Because it's technology , It takes a lot of time to learn , Do the project , And I studied liberal arts , The gap is too big , So the academic work was delayed , The key is , Now I am not interested in learning at all , If it weren't for graduation , I guess I won't even read the literature . So here's the question , My future mother-in-law wants me to study for a doctor , And I am now an academic garbage , The collision between science and technology has made me fall into deep thinking recently .

I have read many wechat articles , See how others discuss the topic of whether to read a doctor or not , Considering interest, cost, etc , I chose direct employment , I haven't told my girlfriend yet , My girlfriend is very supportive of me , No matter what I decide , Will respect me , But I think her heart should also be a little disappointed .

However, I have hung up the topic now , All kinds of pressure concentrated on me , I can't stand it , The direct effect is that I have been losing sleep recently , I often lie down at night with my eyes open . I'm in a vicious circle like this , So I decided not to go on like this , I have to finish my graduation thesis first , Then go straight to work , I really hope to work in a big city , I feel like I have no money , If you want to change your destiny without background, you must go to a big city to have a chance , I am not willing to live in my hometown all my life , So I decided to work directly , Go to a big city , So now I have made up my mind , Keep blogging every day , Record what you learn every day . Force yourself to learn , A first 100 Day punch plan .