The beginning of winter in the year of bitterness and ugliness

Snowflakes are flying all over the sky outside the window , They didn't mean to fall down immediately , Some are adsorbed on the outer wall , Some rushed to the glass to come in through the window , Others spiral upward . Like my thoughts last night , Stretching in all directions .
There are always several mourners in my life , Especially today, the solar term of beginning of winter is accompanied by snowflakes , It is especially suitable for missing my dear grandma . My grandmother leap April 24th, 2020 （2020.06.15） death , I went back to my hometown on the 25th night , 26. Funeral . Grandma had memories when I was a child , My family is in the countryside , I remember when I was in primary school, my favorite thing during the annual holiday was to live at my grandmother's house , At that time, Grandma had moved to the city , Although it is a city, it is also a bungalow , common 4 Jianbeifang , A west room in the yard serves as a kitchen , An east room is a storage room , There is a jujube tree in the yard . Jujube trees can pick up many jujubes every year .
I remember summer vacation , Every morning, 5 Some more , Grandma gets up with a thermos , Make a warm pot of soymilk , Buy some fried dough sticks and some poached eggs , At that time, fried dough sticks were soaked in soybean milk , It tastes really delicious .
When I was in junior high school , Because I often sell tickets by car during holidays, I don't go there much , But sometimes I go , Because grandma's house is not far from the station , Sometimes when I go with the car in the morning, I go to grandma's house for a day , Go home with your car in the afternoon .
Then there was high school , I go to middle school in the city , Because it is a boarding system , A big weekend once a month , So I usually go back to grandma's house for dinner every Sunday afternoon , At that time, grandma's hands shook very much when she finished frying the dishes , Every time grandma put the plate on the table, I was afraid that the plate would fall from Grandma's hand , At that time, although grandma's hands were difficult to use , But because my cousin likes to watch NBA, Grandma also uses videos to bring videos to her cousin . In those years of high school, I went to grandma's house to eat almost every week , Grandma always cooks more dishes for us .
In College , I go back to see grandma a lot less . Later, the house was demolished and transformed , Grandma has been living with my fourth aunt . When I graduate from college , I began to be busy with employment , Busy with work , Go back to see grandma at most twice a year , The older grandma gets , I don't know people anymore . When I went back to see her , She always smiles , And don't know me . Grandma is dying for a year , I could have had a chance to go back and have a look , Unfortunately, I missed , This has become the most regretful thing in my life , Not one of them. .
Grandma's life in her last years was also relatively happy , I took turns living in my aunt's house before the demolition house was built , Later, when the house was built , Grandma lives in her own house , Because grandma doesn't sleep at night , So I can't stand it alone , So my mother and my aunt go to my grandmother's house every week to take care of her . Finally, it seemed that grandma fell again , This directly led to a sharp decline in grandma's physical condition , It was my mother's turn to take care of grandma when she died , If only my aunts were here , In this way, grandma can go more easily .
Grandma raised five daughters all her life , My two cousins and two cousins were almost brought up by my grandfather and grandmother , Grandpa died when I was in junior high school , Grandpa has been working in the street , Due to job transfer , That's why we moved from the village to the city . Grandma is an ordinary woman , Is a great mother , Although grandma is dead , But she will always live in my heart , I hope to be your nephew in my next life .
Written in the beginning of winter in the year of xinchou , It's snowy today , I heard that the sunshade at an intersection of the main road collapsed , It can be seen that heavy snow is rare . More surprising things , Two weeks ago, it rained and I heard the sound of thunder , This weather is rare . God bless China , Peace and prosperity never cease ！