the direction i'm looking for

hello, work hard:
On September 27, 2020, I started the first step of my new journey after graduation, changed careers, and printed out the first log: hello world.
I went to work during the day and started watching videos on station B at night. Little Turtle, Dark Horse, Zhu Youpeng, and Wei Dongshan, I couldn't calm down at the beginning, even after watching it for ten minutes, I wanted to sleep, plus my roommateThe temptation of the game, began to wonder if I should not choose such a path, no direction, no ideas, no friends.
I don't know where I saw a sentence, the strong are always lonely. As a very proud me, this sentence gave me the courage to persevere, so I uninstalled the game, put on headphones, and indulgedin its own world.Before I knew it, a month passed in a blink of an eye, and I was able to calm down and study by myself. I could watch videos for two or three hours continuously, and I began to find the feeling slowly. It took more than three months., I finally finished reading the teaching of C, but when I went to write the code, I didn't know anything about pointers, linked lists, and callback functions. These things made me powerless, so I started to hesitate, and I lost the momentum I had before, and started again.I went back to the game and wrote the code by myself every day. I didn’t force it if I couldn’t write it. I opened up hacks with my classmates and played games. I felt very relaxed.I have to keep working hard, so I played the last game and uninstalled.
Since I can't write the code, then I'll skip it, so I start to learn the Linux operating system, and I continue to write the code that I couldn't write before. After a few months of going around like this, I wrote it myselfAfter two simple projects, I began to try the interview, began to brush the interview questions, and began to accept the cruelty of reality.
The failures of the interviews did not hit me, but made me grow rapidly. I quit my original job, just to work harder to find the right direction, maybe just like my signature, always believe in beautythings are about to happen, I got the offer.
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On September 8, 2021, I received the offer, and I quit my job without hesitation (in order to survive, I found another overworked job), after the handover, it was already September 18, just in timeDuring the Mid-Autumn Festival, I was extremely happy at that time, as if I was a teenager who got candy, and I felt that life was full of hope.
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On September 22, 2021, when I joined the first company, I started from being confused, overwhelmed, and asking questions, to having my own direction, and finally to being able to solve some problems and entering the project.a short period of one month.Because of the hard work of changing careers, I cherish my current job very much, so I am very interested and energetic.
More than half a year has passed in the blink of an eye. From the beginning of being full of interest, to the dullness of the latter, and even boredom after a few months, of course, it has something to do with the work content. There is no direction here, and we go completely according to the project. TodayDoing this module and doing that module tomorrow, so I started to get tired of it, so I wanted to find a direction that I liked to study, so I spent more than a month to determine my future camera direction.So I checked the information, prepared for the interview, and finally got the offer as if these were normal.
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On July 20, 2022, I became a freelancer, perhaps because there was no pressure from the project. After getting the resignation certificate, I felt a lot more relaxed. I originally planned to go to Siguniang Mountain, but I didn't go because of the epidemic.Yes, leaving a little regret.
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On July 27, 2022, after a week of rest, I was fully revived and started my new journey, new environment, new job, and new challenges are all waiting for me!
Keep working hard, boy!!!rush rush!!!