Some things make feelings nowhere to put

《 You abandoned me 》
When I'm no longer what you expect ,
Time should not be all the wrong excuses ,
The fact is that ,
I'm not the first ,
It's not the last one ,
And they are not as lucky as me .

For you ,
Not for you ,
Why don't you give up my existence and attention .

You are gone ,
Who can you hate ？
Hatred has long been wiped out by time and gossip ,
It should not be inner torture ,
Disturbing the heart ,
Destroy a normal person .

Life has never been so easy ,
Good people don't always end well ,
How I wish you were still ,
The past is the past ,
But fate can never be changed ,
Cherishing seems to be reflected in mistakes .

《 Waiting without hope is like a bottomless pit 》

wait for ,
Not everyone cares about the result ;
Direction and process ,
Maybe the best way to reach the end ;

Tired out ,
When the expectation of fantasy is far greater than the reality ,
Fantasy shattered expectations fall ;

She should still be herself ,
Yes, four none 、 free 、 brave 、 There is love .

《 One year after returning from Shenzhen 》
Now it is 2022 year 6 month 26 Japan .
2021 year 7 month 8 Japan , I returned to Kunming from Shenzhen .
I just came back , I'm not in a hurry to find a job , Instead, I want to rest for a month . That's it “ Hide ”, Live a casual adaptive life .
near 7 At the end of the month , Start looking for a job in a hurry , I feel it's really difficult to find a job , There are too few jobs with suitable skills , It's like you can count with one hand . Fortunately, , I still found a suitable job , Get ready 8 I joined in January .
New job ,8 month 9 Number , Pack up everything and go to work . All this started a new journey , New business knowledge , New colleagues , New environment , A new way of life .
Had a serious illness . Time flies , In the twinkling of an eye is the Mid Autumn Festival . And this also happens to be the beginning of illness , I rode out for an hour without drying my hair at night , The next day is the beginning of headache . More than a week later , I can't eat at noon at work , Later, I asked for leave for the first time and came back for a drip , But during this period, I still insist on cycling to work , In this way, the second leave also came , I still checked the female specialty , But no problem was found , I feel my headache getting worse . The hard time finally lasted until the national day , I went to the hospital again , Was hospitalized , I stayed in the hospital for more than a week , Various inspections , From the initial intracranial infection to the later hormone drugs , I still haven't found the reason . But during this hospitalization , Worse than headache , I live in the Department of Neurology , Next to me is a cerebral infarction in his eighties （ Nanny serves ）、 There is also an aunt in her 40s and 50s who has cerebral infarction （ If you are paralyzed, you can still talk vaguely and eat something , The lower body muscles have shrunk , His husband served her ）, They all moan from day to night , At the same time, I feel how painful others should be . Then I left the hospital , They still haven't left .
Bought a small lattice . With all the savings , Negative one downstairs is connected with the subway , Up is the Library , I think the transportation resources are acceptable . The bad thing is , It's real estate , Start talking about the next year 6 At the beginning of , The following information on online sales is 6 End of month , Later, when I went to see the delivery of phase I, I said 10 month , It has to be postponed for various reasons . But the expectation is good .
My aunt and grandmother passed away , I'm sorry that I didn't give her anything when I visited her during the Spring Festival holiday .
My boyfriend's aunt was injured , I was injured by my boyfriend's mother when she worked carelessly , But it doesn't seem very serious .
My boyfriend's uncle cut his foot while harvesting corn , Cultivated for several months .
later , My boyfriend's mother has hernia , Another operation , In hospital for a few days , It cost sixorseven thousand , The rest went back to recuperate , Interval reexamination .
My little aunt left by accident , Carbon monoxide poisoning , For the first time, I felt that people of parents' generation were so far away from death . I can't say what it feels like , But she always felt that her life had been miserable in Thailand , Few people can imagine this level of barrenness .
My second father left after suffering from brain cancer for more than a year , At first, the brain was opened for tumor resection , But it can't be controlled at all , Finally, due to mental uncontrollability , After sleeping, eating, drinking and Lazar for a few months, he was pulled across by life .
I finally adopted 1 The month old cat is gone , All white folded ears , At first, I didn't know that this cat had genetic defects , I don't know that their immunity is relatively weak , When you come, you don't eat after vomiting , Later, I went to fight the source of life , It has been treated for more than a week, but it still doesn't get better , It cost four or five thousand . During the period of energy consumption and suffering , To the last regret .
Then my car was stolen at the subway entrance , I just installed accessories , It disappeared after two days , I didn't see it again .
Dad was hospitalized with abnormal heart rate after recheck , You can't get out of bed after testing for several days , I was hospitalized for more than a week , Get the results of the reexamination and go directly to the hospital , Later, I took my mother to Kunming by private car and hurried down at noon , In the evening, I rushed to the hospital to take care of .
There are countless trivia , If items are lost 、 What I bought originally was told by others that the treatment method was still not handled well, and so on , I don't know what the order of my life is .
Pangpang said ：“ Life is like this , Not so much plain sailing ”. But thank you for going through all this with yourself , Give yourself the greatest support and comfort you can get .